*sigh*

Crushing on someone is SO difficult. >.< I like you but you ignore me. You block me and don't talk to me. You're a big fat meanie to me and make me mad. But I can't help but fall for you.

Response to A wonderful Message by George Carlin

This was taken from an essay I wrote last year in response to a VERY inspiring poem named A wonderful Message by George Carlin.

Read if if you haven't. It's good.

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Response to A wonderful Message by George Carlin

Technology has pretty much taken over the world and mankind. Everything we do is based on technology, upgrades, and electronics. What we have now, what we use are all fast and efficient. The question is: Is it good? Is it right? In this message by George Carlin, he is showing us and proving to us that despite all the efficient, high-tech gadgets we have invented, not only do they NOT help improve social relationships, they are drawing and pushing us away from them.

We have emails, chats, and Facebook. Why do we need to talk to the other person in person, face-to-face? That is the problem these days with many teenagers. For example, a girl breaks up with her boyfriend. Instead of telling him in person or even over the phone (which is already bad enough), she breaks up with him over email. Not only does this hurt the other tremendously, it also shows cowardice.

These days, I’ve witnessed, that not many people are brave enough to talk to a new person in their neighborhood, work, class, anywhere. For the most part, they ignore them completely. True, there are some people who are very social and friendly, but for the most part, many are afraid to step out of their comfort zone, to wade away from the life preserver and swim by themselves.

We have big dreams and hopes. Yet hardly any gets accomplished. We either forget about them or simply think it would be a waste of time. Of OUR precious time. Everything is about us. Me. Hardly anyone thinks about someone other than themselves. George Carlin is trying to tell us to stop being selfish, stop thinking that the world revolves around you and be real, not a fake follower, following what the rest are doing, or a selfish, worthless clone dumped into the world for no apparent reason.

Be someone. Be an Individual. Everyone is different; everyone has a purpose in life. Maybe you haven’t discovered what your purpose is or who you are yet. Not to worry. Many people are just discovering their identities. Don’t be afraid to stand out, be special. Do something different. Make a choice you normally wouldn’t make. Make a plan or goal and stick to it. “Many things start small and end big.” Yours could too.

-Essay.
Tuesday, April 21, 2009, 7:42PM
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More essays/stuff I wrote: My Written Work

Guys' Point of View

>This is very cute!

>And even written by a guy!

> You might agree with it, but

> when it actually happens 99% of girls don't realize it 'til it is too late

> and that guy who did it is so frustrated that he has moved on to someone who

> will take notice.


> From a guys point of view:

> We don't care if you talk to other guys.

> We don't care if you're friends with other guys.

> But when you're sitting next to us, and some random guy walks into the room

> and you jump up and tackle him without even introducing us, yeah, it pisses us off.

> It doesn't help if you sit there and talk to him for ten minutes without

> even acknowledging the fact that we're still there.

> We don't care if a guy calls you, but at 2 in the morning we do get a little concerned.

> ; Nothing is that important at 2 a.m. that it can't wait till he morning.

> Also, when we tell you you're pretty/beautiful/gorgeous/cute/ stunning, we freaking mean it.

> Don't tell us we're wrong.We'll stop trying to convince you.

> The sexiest thing about a girl is confidence.

> Yeah, you can quote me.

> Don't be mad when we hold the door open.

> Take Advantage of the mood im in.

> LET US PAY FOR YOU! DON'T 'FEEL BAD'

> We enjoy doing it.

> It's expected.

> Smile and say 'thank you.'

> Kiss us when no one's watching.

> If you kiss us when you know somebody's looking, we'll be more impressed.

> You don't have to get dressed up for us.

> If we're going out with you in the first place, you don't have to feel the

> need to wear the shortest skirt you have or put on every kind of makeup you own.

> We like you for WHO you are and not WHAT you are.

> Honestly, i think a girl looks more beautiful when she's just in her pj's.

> Or my t-shirt and boxers, not all dolled up.

> Don't take everything we say seriously.

> Sarcasm is a beautiful thing.

> See the beauty in it.

> Don't get angry easily.

> Stop using magazines/media as your bible.

> Don't talk about how hott Morris Chesnutt, Brad Pitt, or Jesse McCartney is in front of us.

> It's boring, and we don't care.

> You have girlfriends for that.

> Whatever happened to the word 'handsome'/'beautiful'.

> I'd be utterly stunned by a girl who greeted me with 'Hey handsome!' instead of 'Hey baby/ stud/ cutie/ sexy' or whatever else you can think of.

> On the other hand im not sayin i wouldn't like it ether.

> Girls: I cannot stress this enough: IF YOU AREN'T BEING TREATED RIGHT BY A GUY, DON'T WAIT FOR HIM TO CHANGE.> DITCH HIS SORRY DISGRACE-TO-THE-MALE-POPULATION ASS,> AND FIND SOMEONE WHO WILL TREAT YOU WITH UTTER RESPECT

> Someone who will honor your morals.

> Someone who will make you smile when you're at your lowest.

> Someone who will care for you even when you make mistakes.

> Someone who will love you, no matter how bad you make them feel.

> Someone who will stop what theyre doing just to look you in the eyes....and say 'i love you' ..........AND ACTUALLY MEAN IT!

> *****Give the nice guys a chance*****

> Holdin Hands- Girls : If you want to hold his hand, gently bump into it a couple of times.
> Guys : Grab it if it happens more than once.

> Cuddling- Girls : When you want to cuddle with him, tell him you're cold.
> Guys : Automatically move closer to her..

> Movies- Girls : During a movie, if he puts his arm around you, tilt y our head on his shoulder
> Guys : Lift her chin up and kiss her.

> Loving each other- Guys : When she tells you she loves you, look deep into her eyes, give her a peck on the lips, and tell her you love her too.... And mean it.

> Laying below the stars- Girls : When you're both laying under the stars, put your head on his chest and close your eyes as you listen to his steady heart beat
> Guys : Whisper in her ear and link your hands with hers. Now make a wish about something you would like to happen Between you and your crush....

> guys: no grabbing!!!


> Guys repost this if you agree.

> Girls repost this if you think it's cute.

> Every Guy who isn't a jerk will agree with this, so we hope that all the> girls that read this will repost this .

> Now copy and repost this; if you don't you'll have bad relationships for 69 years.

> By 12 am tonight your one true love will r ealize how much they want you.

> If you don't repost this, you will have bad luck for your entire life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

> repost as: Guy's point of view
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Isn't it cute??? I love it! ^_^ Love y'all!!!
*wink wink* 'Specially my beloved younger sister, minniie!!! Love you minniie! *hugs*

Dear Boy

Dear Boy,

I see you every day at school. I cannot tell you, but I still like you. I watch from afar as you smile and wave at other girls, as you talk to them, I am hurting inside.

Ever since last year, you've caught my interest. At first, I figured I'll be over you by the time the school year starts again. I was close, until I found you in two of my classes. Now, I can't stop. I cannot deny my feelings for you. Too bad I cannot tell you.

I try to be mean to you, be emotionless, be DIFFERENT when I'm around you. I don't smile, I don't speak. It doesn't always work out. You smile, you grin that cute grin at me and I melt. I smile back.

Whenever you're around, I stutter when I speak or be totally mean. I snap back with vicious insults or I deliberately make you look bad. Maybe this is a way for me to get your attention.

You have friends that are girls that are always laughing and smiling, cracking jokes, and being sweet to you. I am the opposite. I like you, I like you a lot, yet I'm to shy to admit that to you in your face.

If you read this, then this means you would know. If you do and feel the same way, please let me know. Unless you prefer not to.

Usually I'm bold and daring. But towards you, I'm as shy as a mouse. Boy, I like you so much, it's scary. If only you know how scared I am. I have NEVER felt this way towards a boy before. If you let me know, I don't know what to do.

But after spilling out my deep secrets, I feel a lot better. Thank you for listening.

Gah! Panicking....again..-.-

Just a little notice, I am writing all this as I am doing my homework...which I'm totally procrastinating on. >.< But it's all good b/c guess what? Math teacher's wife was preggo until Sat. May 22 at 5:20pm. Gave birth to a 10 POUND BABY. Like that is BEYOND humongous. Well, everyone's all happy and healthy (which means my MT will stay home for a few days and that means NO HW!!! Except for the project we're currently working on.)

Checking out some unis, Stanford, NYU, etc b/c I'm reading Gossip Girls, so I know a few Ivy Leagues and universities in the East Coast. But it's about time I start looking and deciding what I want....or I can wait until senior year, and apply to every place I can get an application on. xD Plenty of choices then. :D Haha.

Anywho, journalism final project. I'm writing about Kpop, mainly introducing it to my school. It's pretty okay so far. Got some good feedback/quotes/interview...things. :D Back to math again.

[36 minutes later] Progressing nicely in math. At the right pace I like it. xD Err...a bit slow for my liking, but at least I'm working, right? :D I NEED to get my enrollment application BACK from the office. FIRST thing tomorrow morning. MUST MUST MUST get it back. *makes a mental note* I'm so easily distracted these days. ...>.<

*slams keyboard* I hate you Blogger. Stop screwing things up just because you CAN'T seem to know what is WHAT! Grr....>.<>.< Well, I don't swear, but still.

Whole bunch of stuff, Super Junior's new song, Bonamana. SO amazing. I <3 it all. Some people don't like it, but I do. So hey, everyone has a right to voice their opinions. Album name is Bonamana, meaning Beauty, and I SO agree. Their sexiness, amazing voices, and just plain perfect. *sigh* Fangirling here. :D Anyhoo, still kinda pissed at Blogger for deleting everything. I hate you blogger. *repeats a million times*

So, what was it I was saying? Super Junior. Their comeback was amazing, minus 3. Kangin's on military leave, Kibum acting, and Hankyung...wherever he may be. But guess what? Several ELFs heard Hankyung's voice in Shake It Up (I believe?) so maybe it's all just a scam to make us pay attention? Whatever it is, ELFs are cheering for 13 again. Let's hope it may be true.

Enough of me sulking b/c no matter what I write, it still won't be the same again. Just a song rec: Bobby McFerrin's Don't Worry, Be Happy. BEST song ever. It is so amazing. I'm not even kidding. Check it out. And guess what? I am a big fan of "old" songs if I may put it that way. I'm not sure what they're called b/c some of them aren't exactly that old, but they were...well, not so popular anymore. This song will make any bad day turn around. "You had a bad day, you're taking one down, you sing a sad song just to turn it around~" Yeah. :D As James said, many people these days don't sing just to sing. It's turned into the money talk. The older songs were full of feelings and...they sing just because they want to sing. It's not about how much money you make, or how popular you are. If you feel like screaming out a song, belting out lyrics, go for it. Singing just for fun is the way to go. Don't not sing b/c you're worried you might stink and everyone would laugh at you. Let them laugh. They're just embarrassed that they can't do what you're doing: Having fun. So, don't worry, be HAPPY!!!

Peace,
Gou Gou

P.S. I officially HATE blooger. It deleted my WHOLE post which I've been working on since 7. >.< Stupid blogger. But I'm still happy stil. xD Because, don't worry, be happy...

Sick and tired. Of everything.

I'm done. I'm done putting up with whatever crap they're spewing. I'm done listening. I'm done sympathizing. They can just go and screw themselves.

It's been a long time since I've felt like this. And right now, I'm not in going to try anymore. I'm done. I've tried for a long time. And I can't deal with it anymore. They can say whatever they want, feel sorry for themselves, WHATEVER. I'm just not going to care. Whatever they do, well, who cares? Maybe other people might. But guess what? I don't.

Another day at school

There are some days that just plain confuse me. Then there are days when I'm not confused. Right now, I'm neither. Just a person with a headache. >.<

I have a Brave New World quiz in English tomorrow. I am proud to say that I studied. Using Sparknotes, but I still studied. I have finished all homework. It's been a while since I actually had an HOUR and more to kill before I hit the haystack. Usually, I'd be doing homework until 10, sometimes even 11.

Need to finish Boys Over Flowers. I absolutely LOVE that drama. If you haven't watched it, I definitely recommend it. Mysoju has it, but it skips whenever using YahooVideo. So I recommend DramaFever. Great quality. Has subtitles. AND it has every part. Take out the few seconds of ads here and there and it's magnificent. Bonus: It's LEGAL. Not that linking other sites isn't, but Youtube is cracking down and so are other sites. And Mysoju is based on linking other sites to it, so yeah. DramaFever's the way to go. If you want more info, contact me. Or find out at Dramabeans.

What's next? Brave New World. Written by Aldous Huxley, who in my opinion, was a total crackhead. And I'm pretty sure I'm right. He probably has experimented with every drug. He was totally crazy. "...[s]he swallowed a horse. [s]He's dead, of course." But what he wrote is actually coming true. Test tube babies. Let's hope that's all it goes to. If it gets worse...well, I probably won't be alive to see it. You might not be too. But you'll never know. Maybe I'm a sorceress and you're immortal and we'll live to see the end of the world. Then we'll teleport to another world/planet/whatever and we'll continue to live there. I would continue this blog of course. But by then, the computer will probably be outdated. The internet will probably be as ancient as writing letters pen to paper. Humani then probably communicated telepathically (with a computer [chip?] implanted in their brains). Or sin waves. Who knows?

That book is something you WOULDN'T expect in an English class. But it's considered a classic. Which led to my English teacher telling us it's okay to take drugs and have wild hot sex IF our parents don't know. O.O Apparently she's playing the devil's Advocate, but she's trying to corrupt us. I just know it. She's evil...

At first we had an option with our Chem test. Take it Friday, or take it Monday. I naturally would opt for the Monday one, because it gives me more time to study. Turns out there was no other option. Everyone's taking it Monday because she's not gonna be here Friday. Whoop-de-doo. She's always missing. >.< But when she's not here, we don't really do anything. ^.^ Yippee. So that means I'll have to study for the test, starting today and through the weekend. And I WILL. I aced the last one...err..I got an A, which is amazing seeing that I haven't been doing that well in that class this year. I want to raise my grade to a solid A and KEEP it there.

Birthday party coming up soon. I need to get a present...*sigh* Will have to do that soon. So much things this week. But as you know, it's just another day at school...

Just plain tired.

Music: Evergreen by DBSK

Everyone has good days and bad days. For me, I guess I'm just plain unlucky. I had a self-custom made bracelet that I wear to keep my "balance". I'm balanced all right, but with it on, it's a bad day for me. And it isn't the first time.

First of all, my Journalistic project went from HURRAY!!! to WTF!?! in a matter of seconds. We managed to scavenge most of it, but the interviews are messed up. Which REALLY sucks...because the rest was easy to redo. The interviews weren't. >.<

Next, [and I am still mortified] was in English. My "wonderful" Devil's Advocate teacher called on me. And believe me, she NEVER calls on me. >.<>.< I hate that class now. I never really loved it, but it was okay. And I HATE [emphasized] to answer questions in class. I should've done this instead, IF MY BRAIN (which so wonderfully malfunctions when I NEED it) was actually working. -.-' I normally would've replied "Sorry. But that's top secret." Instead I babbled a TOTALLY wrong answer. She had the decency to say, "Well, that's not exactly it." I wanted to bang my head against the desk and/or kill myself then and there.

I hate it SO much when you think of the greatest comebacks or things to do AFTER it has happened. *wails in misery* Thank GOD the class was only HALF full. AP Euro testing. Poor them.

Anyway, this week has been pretty on and off. I was asleep for a HUGE part of it. Really tired. I can't take anymore of it. I'm pretty sure I'll collapsed if I continue. TGIF.

Ending on a curious note, girls confuse me. Boys REALLY confuse me. And add them all together? I'm one big question mark. I understand most girls. After all, I am one. (Or am I? ;D) But guys? I can't. I tried. No success. They are like the perfect mint chocolate cake (that I so want to make) that cannot be perfected. I give up. If anyone wants to explain and clarify, please don't hesitate to help me out. I really would appreciate it. Thanks.

Life screws with us...

Sometimes I think there IS someone up there, controlling this world. He's puppeting what goes on. And he enjoys watching us miserable. Don't say that it's US that is the problem. We could be doing nothing. And "he" will come and mess with us.

Say, we are in a doll house. And he's the big meanie looking down on us.

Never mind. I'm just SO out of it. T_T AP testing this week at school. And I always get affected by what others are feeling. So I'm so whacked. And NO, i'm not on drugs. -.-'

Let me tell you a secret: I'm a witch. I can move things with my mind. When I get out of control, or when I cannot control my temper, things start to fly around. It gets really crazy. That's why no one has seen me really mad before. Because I'm required to keep this wizardry under radar. But I'm telling you. But you won't tell anyone, would you? Because if you do, I can make your life miserable. I can be invisible, teleport, go back in time, morph, levitate, and many more. One of my scariest talents is the ability to detect what people are feeling. I can change their moods. I can...I've already said too much.

Don't tell. Or else you don't know what might happen. I'm a Gemini, meaning I have two moods, maybe even more. And I'm born in the year of Fire. And you know what that means right? Be careful. There are more out there. And some are rogues...

Gaaah!!!

Okay. I've GOT to get my life straighten. If not, I'm pretty much screwed over.

First of all, I NEED to find my stinking flash drive that suddenly developed legs and ran away from me. Just like cats do. NO kidding. Cats do NOT like me. There's something that makes ME scared of THEM and them scared of me. Complicated relationship - let's not go into that.

Anywho, I want to change blogs. Once again. Probably not. Though I'm really REALLY tempted to get a LiveJournal. I had one a few years ago. Didn't use it. Not much. My entries are lame and uncoordinated and are all just ranting and how much I want to kill hurt someone. Yeah. LAME-O.

Back to topic, whatever it may possibly be. I NEED to finish the Driversed course online and get my permit. That's my goal. BEFORE my birthday...which is in like a month. So better get this lazy butt up and running...er....fingers moving, that is. It's ONLINE. Jeex, I'm SO hyper right now. -.-'

Took my baby for a walk. I <3 him SOOOO much. It's got to be unhealthy, but if I die early from loving him to death, well, it's worth it.

Took a little fun quiz (see last entry). Cute. Got some stress away. Mostly, I'm kinda done with everything. Done with photo rot. T_T I WANT MY FLASH DRIVE BACK!!!!

Another change of topic. I absolutely DESPISE a certain person, which I'm sure everyone is pretty obvious about. Or else I would seriously kill myself if I cannot get rid of ...grr...I'm not really gonna go into it, because I'm in an overall good mood.

Let's leave this happiness here. End of a good note. See ya!

Birthday Party

Since I was ....[age], I've always loved birthday parties. So much fun and the food...yum. Anyway, last Sunday was Rain's birthday. We'd already planned everything few weeks back.

Anyway, it was amazing. EVERYONE was DRENCHED. Not kidding. There was no one NOT wet...except her parents...but they locked us outta the house. It was so much fun.

The goodie bags were great. I thought it was better than my present to her. =D Anywho, it was totally great. We had a dance off later on and that was fun...

Now...this was a few days back..so I don't remember all the tip top details. Overall? It was one of the BEST birthday parties I've attended....though it won't top my summer school-out party..aka Party for the June Babies. =D Everyone in June...HAPPY EARLY BDAY!!! ^_^