You know that feeling when you simply don't care anymore? Not the "giving up" feeling, but the one where everything can just happen and it won't affect you. At least, it won't affect you emotionally.
That's when you are finally free. Free of what, it doesn't matter. You can be free of school work, free of drama, free to do whatever you want. It doesn't matter what you are free of, as long as you are free. That is when you truly start living.
I was looking through old text messages and letters from an old flame of mine and that was when I realized...I just didn't care what it had to say. I was able to extract myself from the emotional mess of a circle I've been in for the past many months and finally see the world clear for the first time. That feeling...it was powerful. It was empowering. I was in control of myself. I was in control.
No more emotional rollercoasters for me. No more sudden mood swings, little things that reminded me of him. I deleted all messages. I erased his existence from my phone. From my computer. From my life. That feeling was amazing.
