To be truthful, I've posted a lot of drafts for new posts...but I have never gotten around to finishing it. I think that maybe, I might not want to blog on this blog anymore; it's a thing of the past. I've grown up so much since last year. I've been through a lot and I've matured a lot. I not longer try to hold on to the past. I've truly let it go. Whatever happens will happen. The more I tried to hold on, tried to maintain it in my memories, the more unhappy I became. I was in a hole and I tried to keep on digging...it only got me deeper. I couldn't get out.
Now, it's a new semester. A new year. A new me. I'm doing a lot of new things, meeting a lot of new people, showing a new personality. There will always be a part of me that will never change, but for the most part, I am someone new. I don't care much about the past; it will be there, but I will not. I don't hold any grudges against anyone from the past; at the same time, I won't ever forget what happen.
I'm having a new way of conveying my thoughts now, to a much bigger audience, a more connected one. I might create a new blog for it, but for now, it's all going to be live. Living Fearlessly, my new show. That's where I will be able to show others that it's okay to be bold, to be strong. Live fearlessly. You only live once; don't let things stop you from pushing life to the limit. Live life on the edge.
These days, I've been ridiculously happy. No, not happy. I've been exuberant. Pure joy. I'm laughing at the slightest things. Being incredibly silly. Is there a reason for it? No, there's no reason for being happy. It just happens. I want to keep it like this. I've been working part-time, full-time student, as well as doing a lot of extracurriculars. Oddly enough, I've been able to get at least 8 hours of sleep a night. Maybe that's why life's been so wonderful lately. Or maybe it's because it's a new year.
Looked up my horoscope for this year. Last year, 2012, I was discovering what love, relationships, romance was all about. I found out what works with me and what doesn't. It was up and down, out of control. In the end, I got hurt because of it. But truthfully, I didn't expect anything. I wasn't ready for a relationship then. I doubt I really was "in love"; more like I was caught up in the moment and everyone around me was expecting it. Guess in a way it worked out. No more ties, no more loose ends.
2013 for me is supposed to be a good year. My "career" is taking off; I got a job at the beginning of this year. As for the romance cycle, apparently Neptune (or some other star) is taken up space in my "area" until 2015. I now know what I want and am ready for a relationship. All's well because there are a few possibilities I've set my sights on. After all, I always go in with a goal :)
So, this may be a goodbye. It might also be a hello. Who knows. I've had this blog for a long time. It has memories, has significance behind it. But only do I say goodbye to the past do I get to move forward. For now, it's all still up in the air. Maybe this one will be one of the ones I keep.
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