I'm Alive

Hey, nice to see you all again. Guess what? I'm alive. I know. Shocking right?

It's been about a month since school's been over. Life is so mellow...but there really isn't enough time. So why am I even wasting more time? I dunno...maybe because I'm a NORMAL person?

I have a few works I'd like to show everyone. I'm just not sure where to put it. Here? Or somewhere else? I did have blog JUST for stuff like that....what happened to it?

So many things have been going on. Come romance, go romance. Come school, go school. Currently I'm playing a courtship dance. Isn't that exciting?!?! :)

Sorry. I was lying. There's no courting and no one's courting anyone. I was just playing. Which brings to what happened today: The security guard at my work place was like "Are you waiting for your boyfriend to pick you up?" Uh...heh, no. I wish, but no. And he was all like, what? You don't have a boyfriend? It was pretty funny. Awkward, but funny. Oh! Just like the awkward funny blurb I wrote for my radio show. Yep, now that's another story for another day.

That's all for n o w. I will now go and do some actual work or else this "I'm Alive" will turn into "RIP me". So, peace and good luck.

Time flies

School year's almost over. Junior year is almost over. My high school life is almost over. Time flies.
It's sort of shocking how quickly it goes by. Seems like just yesterday, I was still watching Pokemon at 10 in the morning before my mom dropped me off at preschool. Yeah, those were the days.

It's quite fascinating about how things go about. Sometimes it's just all so random. But all the actions, every day movements, they are almost always the same. Like robots. Clones. Get up, go to school, come home, do homework, sleep. And repeat. But the weekends: nearly every weekend is slightly different than the last. And when I get out of this school life and into the real world, the day to day life is going to change. A lot.

I haven't spent a lot of time blogging or even actually doing anything productive. It seems like my body has gone in the time machine, doing everything slower and much less proactive and the rest of the world goes on as usual. And I am left in the past. I n t h e t i m e m a c h i n e.

I wish I can say it doesn't really matter, but in realty, it really does. If I don't get started and I don't get serious and I don't actually go and do anything, my dear lord, my life is going to fall even further apart and I cannot manage to salvage all the itty bitty pieces that are flung all over the place. Thank you very much, I know, I'm a dramatic person.

But seriously, I need SOME type of motivation that needs to make me move. Any forcible acts. Any threats. Death notes, whatever. Something that gets me moving. Gets me up and about and everything. If not, well, I believe this may be the last you hear from me.

Whew, whattaweek

It's been a long, long, hectic week. Been all over the place. No, not really. Just LA. Had much fun. :)

Now, if you going to one of the main "movie" places in the world, you MUST go to one of their studios: Universal Studios.

Now, I have to admit, it's nothing like Disneyland or Six Flags. There's like two roller coasters, tops. And they aren't the full out, into-the-sky-and-upside-down kinds. They were more like simulations that last 5 minutes, maybe and wait for about 5 minutes to ride. Short and quick.

They had PLENTY of behind-the-scenes movie thing. Duh, it's Universal. What else would you expect? It's movies. TV shows, whatever you see on TV, it's probably done at Universal Studios. Maybe not everything, but y'know, most of it is.

Went to Waterworld, great show. Be prepared to get wet though. :) Here's the cast:

Quite a crazy show; really exciting. I seriously had a lot of fun booing the pirates and cheering on the good guys. Of course, if you didn't, well, you kinda get soaked. :P Yeah, they pull out "guns" and spray you til you're soaking wet. And then they light planes on fire, throw people into toxic stuff, great show. You'll totally enjoy it.

Universal Studios, famous for movie sets, all that Hollywood schadaddle. Now here's a few pics that I think you'll enjoy. :)


(^This guy, he's real. No kidding. I saw him sitting outside a cafe in Universal, still doing the creepy still thing. But he's real. He waved and nodded. O.O)

Now, I didn't just go to LA for the fun stuff. You need to balance a happy and carefree time with the dreaded school necessities. Yes, I know. I wasn't all that happy (actually, I'm lying. I was pretty excited. :D) But it was totally worth the trip.

UC Irvine

Irvine is a really pretty pretty school. New buildings, big campus, secluded in a way, but open to the wilderness. It's kind of on a "cliff", if I may say, overlooking the highway. Nice, fresh air, comfortable surroundings, gorgeous sunlight. Wonderful.

Their buildings were absolutely unique. Each building was different. They had this engineering building that was built by the students themselves. It had an inverted pyramid and was a clear glass building. Absolutely gorgeous in a sunny day. And if it's not sunny, it gives a mysterious/spooky feeling - imagine on a cloudy/rainy day and you're inside the building. The rain splattering against the glass, the wind howling as you are huddled inside. Oh yeah, I should be writing horror/scary novels. :)



Here are a few more random pics from Irvine. The residences around UCI had very strange names. Or rather, they had names of other unis, such as Dartmouth, Harvard, Stanford, Oxford.



Well, the main point of the trip was to visit colleges, but if you're going down to LA, you can NOT miss out on Hollywood or Disneyland. Except I kinda did. :'( I fail at directing or even using a GPS and we went to Universal Studios instead of Disneyland. I prefer Disney over Universal, but since the tickets were free, I can't really complain.

And something else? LA traffic is HORRID. And their carpool lanes are weird. Their signs are weird. "Humps ahead" instead of "Bump ahead". *smirks* I'm so immature. :)

Carpool



And that is all I have to say. Here's some random pics of LA. I really like it there. :) Maybe I'll go there and then I'll be hanging with the profs during the day and getting groovy with the stars at night. :) Who knows, a girl can dream can't she?

On Border of Insanity

Like really. I mean, I had a great time and everything, but where do I stand now? What comes next? What should I do? I had so much fun. I thoroughly enjoyed myself and I'm glad I decided to go. Sure, there were awkward parts, but I definitely loved it.

Problem now, what's next? I'm waiting patiently...well not really. But as patiently as I can get. If I seriously have to wait any longer, I would jump off the roof. Probably not. But I'm seriously considering it.

*face palm* This sucks. I've never been really patient. Maybe this is when I start growing up. Start maturely and learning to wait.

Wait, let's back track. I'm deciding...nope. I don't want to grow up yet, so people can suck it. I'm going to be who I want to be. Do what I want to do. And most importantly, with WHOM I want to do it with. So there.

Screw it. I'm doing things my way. And there's not stopping me. HOLLAAA~

Transformation

Continuing with my drastic changes...not really. Lol. :D

It's a new Lunar year and to me, this may be the biggest change yet. I've chopped my hair short. Like from down my back to above my shoulders. Yeah, shortest I've ever done. But I love it. It gets annoying at times, but I feel wonderful. SO much lighter and easier to handle.

Junior Year Second Semester. High school's almost over for me. Look at me, I'm only 3/4 done, and I'm already talking like it's the end. Maybe it is, because May is the supposed end of the world. Before it was December 21, 2012, now it's May something 2011. Sucks, doesn't it? I spent my whole life in school.

I really got started on thinking about my future. Sure, I still have times where I just daddle and not do anything really. But I'm starting internships, programs, volunteers, and really just pointing me in a general direction for where my life will head when I leave the sheltered roof of school and into a world where I have to fend for myself. I never really knew where I was going; I always kind of just went with what came my way. I did things on impulse. Even now, I still don't know what specifically. Maybe it's the same for everyone. Maybe not. It sucks not having someone to lead you, but independence is the key to surviving the "jungle" out there. Life is cruel. :(

But next on my transformation: contacts. So close, yet so far! Can't wait. :D

Screw you history. You and your facts and information.

Sometimes, I'd really like to crack a bottle over life's head for being such a pain in the butt. Yeah. But really, the problem is truly within yourself. Aw, great. Now I get to sound wishy-washy and become a philosopher. There goes my career as a professional stalker. :(

I just wish I didn't have to do all this. It's break, and for once I don't have any homework. Except for the fact that I'm not doing so well in my history class and need to study for the test when we come back from break. :'( If only break was like, i dunno, forever. :)

I mean, school's fun, but really? I've spent a century in school already. I've lived in three decades, two centuries, and two millenia.../and I'm not even twenty yet! And truth be told, I've spent a major portion of that time in school. So if the world does end in 2012, which would suck coz I really would've spent a whole life in school, I'm not going to sit back and let life hit me back. I'm gonna sucker punch it and do what I want. Oh yeah, there's my declaration of independence. Take that, Washington.

Truthfully, I have nothing against Washington. Or any of the presidents...well maybe some of them. But I don't want to learn history just so "we don't make the same mistakes our ancestors did". Bull****.
In the history book (which is right in front of me), I've already read about duplicate wars, compromises, and other things THAT HAS HAPPENED MORE THAN ONCE. And I'm not even to the 1900s yet! So if THEY can make the same "mistakes" why do we have to work so hard to "TRY NOT TO MAKE THEM AGAIN?" Really, it's all just bull.

So now my fellow history friends, I, whois dying in some way or the other over history, will like to fight back and "kill it with my awesome". Take that history. And your facts. And nuggets. AND STAY IN THE GRAVE BECAUSE THAT IS WHERE YOU ARE.

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Some times...Things CAN change a life...drastically

Don't be alarmed. After all, this IS just a thought. A piece of deepness that has been stored inside me for some while. Something that can just EXPLODE...and impale a lot of people.
You know, like a GRENADE. And yes, if you know what I'm talking about, say aye. Grenade by Bruno Mars. Gotta love that song.
Back to the task at hand.

Lately I've read a few books that may have changed my life, if not a lot but a little. The most recent one is Thirteen Reasons Why by Jay Asher. And Ellie, I'm dedicating this to you, my best friend ever.

Usually, I don't read much deep books that require much thought or attention. I'm a fantasy/fiction, sci-fi, thrillers, suspense, mystery, etc. type. But sometimes, a life changing novel here and there is enough to keep me happy.

Thirteen Reasons Why. I don't really have to explain. After all, I don't have thirteen reasons why I read it. I just have one: My friend recommended it to me. There I read it. And guess what? I love it.

After hold still by Nina Lacour (which I REALLY recommend), I was interested in seeing what TRW would do to me. hold still made me think. A lot. And seriously. TRW made me wonder. Curious. And confusion.

I refuse to let you know why. But read it for yourself, and discover, (maybe), the meaning of life.